Glimmers caress the world between the sky A burning ember heaven Flooded by the oceans of forever Knee deep in the crest of the shore The edge is here Right in front of us Let’s drop in together And dive in the darkness The aquatic nether greets us With fair alien gifts Homes from the deceased Primordial ascensions Marine currency And the celestial corpses of the living reef Wandering the line between dimensions Lost along the sand with you The daylight recedes into the horizon The burnt water fizzles out into the blue There’s nothing left for us now But the abyss and the world above Nothing sounds more right Then dying on the beach with you
This must be a fantasy What am I now? I’m lost in what I used to be Witnessing new nightmares Forgotten my favorite memories Who am I now? I can’t discern reality Something’s not right Oblivious to death that comes for me I’m miserable and I don’t know why There is no future, It’s all in the past Spending awake hours afraid of the world Trying to remember who loved me last I wish I could see in front of me But everything is too far away Barely conscious, I don’t think I’m dead My eyes scream alive as I wither and decay I’m trying to recall your face I want to say your name But the answer is all the same My mind is damned and I all I feel is hate I don’t want to be alone as I go Please be here while I still breathe I don’t know who you are Just please don’t forget me
What Do You Think Of Me Now? by CalrissianFSteele, literature
Literature
What Do You Think Of Me Now?
There’s some things you don’t know You’re a little behind I wish I could have told you sooner I didn’t mean to lie There’s a piece to me you’ve never seen Something that might make you change your mind You’ve never known what to believe And I’m sorry I wasted your time I’m just afraid of you I’m afraid you’ll never see me the same There’s no sorry There’s no relief There’s a hollow space in us There’s an infinite freedom Just a black void Embrace the demon What do you think of me now? Maybe you were wrong about me Maybe in the end, I’m just the same Maybe your opinion doesn’t mean a thing
You'll Never Be Yourself by CalrissianFSteele, literature
Literature
You'll Never Be Yourself
Tumbling down dark woods The deepness is familiar The violence is not enough Braindead and strangled warnings Maybe it’s broken, maybe it’s in love There’s a vice for everything And maybe I found a new one God fueled hate rants Raving at the world of you Spraying ashes on living dragons Making peace with ancient doom Fear is a beautiful beast Entwined by her mind Laughing in the chasm Axioms defied Wishing upon a star On a cloudy night Misery refreshes my head And holds me tight What a wonderful thing To be bleeding and blind To erect the distasteful An fail to unwind There’s a belt around the brain You’re losing it fast Splitting yourself together With no peace in the past Deception under control The distance of lies There’s no escape from you Hell is meant to feel alive I’m a monster under a mask Crying with a gun in my hand I built my own cage Of scars and rage Sanity has been severed Every second of the day I’m dying I’ll may never get it together But I’ll never give up
Gone away to reach the beyond Traveling to nowhere special Your imprisoned within the self Welcome to the underside of hell Rarely alone and always nervous Conquering fears and challenging notions Everyone isn’t who they seem to be Am I imprisoned or am I free? A vast landscape from nature to city Entrenched in a reality with all 6 senses A simulated reality that’s so unreal Yet speaking to me about how I really feel Instincts stumble across the trip, thoughts dancing with the psyche The truth is unavoidable and there’s no reward for lying Where the crazed make sense and the sane are deranged Where the world seems wrong with the right kind of strange Follow the darkest side of your shadow Open the doors in the worst side of yourself I’m afraid of life, my sanity bursting at the seams I’ll die right now if death is just a dream
Glimmers caress the world between the sky A burning ember heaven Flooded by the oceans of forever Knee deep in the crest of the shore The edge is here Right in front of us Let’s drop in together And dive in the darkness The aquatic nether greets us With fair alien gifts Homes from the deceased Primordial ascensions Marine currency And the celestial corpses of the living reef Wandering the line between dimensions Lost along the sand with you The daylight recedes into the horizon The burnt water fizzles out into the blue There’s nothing left for us now But the abyss and the world above Nothing sounds more right Then dying on the beach with you
This must be a fantasy What am I now? I’m lost in what I used to be Witnessing new nightmares Forgotten my favorite memories Who am I now? I can’t discern reality Something’s not right Oblivious to death that comes for me I’m miserable and I don’t know why There is no future, It’s all in the past Spending awake hours afraid of the world Trying to remember who loved me last I wish I could see in front of me But everything is too far away Barely conscious, I don’t think I’m dead My eyes scream alive as I wither and decay I’m trying to recall your face I want to say your name But the answer is all the same My mind is damned and I all I feel is hate I don’t want to be alone as I go Please be here while I still breathe I don’t know who you are Just please don’t forget me
What Do You Think Of Me Now? by CalrissianFSteele, literature
Literature
What Do You Think Of Me Now?
There’s some things you don’t know You’re a little behind I wish I could have told you sooner I didn’t mean to lie There’s a piece to me you’ve never seen Something that might make you change your mind You’ve never known what to believe And I’m sorry I wasted your time I’m just afraid of you I’m afraid you’ll never see me the same There’s no sorry There’s no relief There’s a hollow space in us There’s an infinite freedom Just a black void Embrace the demon What do you think of me now? Maybe you were wrong about me Maybe in the end, I’m just the same Maybe your opinion doesn’t mean a thing
You'll Never Be Yourself by CalrissianFSteele, literature
Literature
You'll Never Be Yourself
Tumbling down dark woods The deepness is familiar The violence is not enough Braindead and strangled warnings Maybe it’s broken, maybe it’s in love There’s a vice for everything And maybe I found a new one God fueled hate rants Raving at the world of you Spraying ashes on living dragons Making peace with ancient doom Fear is a beautiful beast Entwined by her mind Laughing in the chasm Axioms defied Wishing upon a star On a cloudy night Misery refreshes my head And holds me tight What a wonderful thing To be bleeding and blind To erect the distasteful An fail to unwind There’s a belt around the brain You’re losing it fast Splitting yourself together With no peace in the past Deception under control The distance of lies There’s no escape from you Hell is meant to feel alive I’m a monster under a mask Crying with a gun in my hand I built my own cage Of scars and rage Sanity has been severed Every second of the day I’m dying I’ll may never get it together But I’ll never give up
Gone away to reach the beyond Traveling to nowhere special Your imprisoned within the self Welcome to the underside of hell Rarely alone and always nervous Conquering fears and challenging notions Everyone isn’t who they seem to be Am I imprisoned or am I free? A vast landscape from nature to city Entrenched in a reality with all 6 senses A simulated reality that’s so unreal Yet speaking to me about how I really feel Instincts stumble across the trip, thoughts dancing with the psyche The truth is unavoidable and there’s no reward for lying Where the crazed make sense and the sane are deranged Where the world seems wrong with the right kind of strange Follow the darkest side of your shadow Open the doors in the worst side of yourself I’m afraid of life, my sanity bursting at the seams I’ll die right now if death is just a dream